this week in my crazy life..

its been a very stressful week. yesterday kyle left and i was an emotional wreck all day. it wasn't fun. i mean, it sucks having your bestfriend, the love of your life leave for two years and only getting to hear his voice twice a year. we do however get to write each week which is good. and also send pictures. i got him a camera last year for his birthday, i hope he can find someway to print the pictures and send them to me. i also get to send him packages with like chips, candy, toys, books, whatever he wants or needs in them. i wrote my first letter last night and i'm sending it today. hopefully he gets it by saturday. he has one day a week where he can go laundry, play football, write letters, do whatever where he's not out tracking. so those are the days which i will try and get my letters to him. he said i can go on dates with other guys, but really, i dont want to. everyone said i should, but i honestly do not feel the need to date. what i need to get done is working on getting my major done before he gets back so i can have a stable job while he is out looking for one, working as much as i can so i can pay for a new car, and just being with friends that i havent had time to be with because all of my time has been spent with him. now the friends i do hang out with the most, rave. i'm sure you know what that is. ive only gone to one and it was almost a year ago. anyway kyle got upset because he didnt want anything bad happening to me. so i promised him i wouldnt go to anymore raves. but so far, a lot of my friends want to hang out. so i've got a full schedule this weekend. which is good because i need to keep myself busy. if i have time alone, i will start thinking, and end up crying and missing kyle even more. so everyone, including him, have told me i need to stay busy. so over the summer, i'll be taking classes and i will start working on my major. also being with family and friends as much as i can. speaking of family, i'm really close to his family. they're my second family. the night before kyle left, he got set apart as a missionary. and everyone was crying. anyways his dad gave me a hug, the first one we've ever had. and i cannot tell how good that felt. not in a creepy way. but in a fatherly love kind of way. i havent felt that in over 7 years, and i never really felt that when i lived with my father. sad huh? so i know that i can always count on them to help me. anyways, i am hoping to save at least half of everypaycheck if not more and get a new car by this time of next year. then once i get my car, i can start saving for my wedding. kyle and i have already talked about getting married and having kids and all that fun stuff. so i know that he's the one i want to spend the rest of my life with. going on his mission will help him become a better man. im hoping that he will come back home and have a change of heart towards things. he can be a bit of a jerk sometimes and he knows that. but really, he treats me well. he's just great. but yeah...today is a new day and a day to be happy. i am also going to start to build my testimony and make it stronger by reading more, praying more and learning more.

the family :)

curtis being a dork in the background.

just waiting...messing with the camera.

all of the kids. :)

kyle and kevin saying goodbye.

kyle and danielle saying goodbye.

kyle and i saying goodbye to eachother...he cried right after this.

kyle standing in line for security check...last time we saw his face...);