thinking

okay okay so i know i said i would only update this once a week. but i've been thinking a lot about stuff lately. mostly about kyle. so far i've gotten two letters, i havent checked my mail in a few days, so i dont know if he's written any more. i told him that i am praying and reading my scriptures more. he said he loves me for doing that and it will help me gain and help my testimony grow stronger. its really hard not having him here. its even harder when people ask about him. all i can do is just smile and think that he's doing well and learning what he needs to learn so he can teach those willing to learn. i'm thinking i will try and be a better missionary myself. i'll try and tell more people about the church and as i'm doing that, i'll learn more about it too. i wish that i had grown up in an active family. i wish i had gone to primary everyweek. i wish i had paid more attention in seminary and sunday school. well now that i'm a teacher, teaching sunbeams, i get the chance to learn the stuff i never was able to learn. taking institute has also helped me. i hope that when kyle comes back home, we will be able to talk about the gosple and i'll understand what he's saying. its been almost two weeks since he's been gone. almost everynight i have dreams with him in them. i miss him terribly but i know that his letters will leave me at peace and give me comfort that he's alright. i just need to keep busy and just pray and read more.